decisions, decisions...

First off, apologies for not having a weekend DIY for you. I have been having a really rough past few months. Perhaps it partly has to do with these gloomy days as we transition into Spring, but I have been feeling very stressed and sometimes even depressed at times. You may or may not know this, but I technically have a total of 5 jobs

              My “jobs”…
       1. a blogger
            2. an etsian
        3. a graphic designer for Miami’s dining services
           4. a freelance graphic designer for Miami’s bookstore and Apple services
       5. a fashion photographer for Up Magazine
         6. if you count being a full time design student [which certainly feels like a job]

The lovely CB from Citybirds Nest made me realize today that number one up there shouldn't actually be on that list. Blogging is not a job for me. In fact, it's one of the only releases I have from a stressful day at times. I love blogging and would never give it up :]

I’ve learned over the years that I am a very empathetic person and a lot of times driven by guilt [perhaps the wrong word?] The point is I worry so much about others at times that I forget to think about my own needs. I started out with one job in college. It was so easy then. But when a better opportunity came around I couldn’t let my current job and managers down so I decided to make both jobs work. Here I am, three years down the road juggling 5 jobs while trying to graduate. I’m beginning to realize that two out of those 6 jobs up there are not something I’m in because I love it, but because I feel obligated to do it. And no, being a blogger and managing an Etsy shop are not one of the two :]

It's come to the point where I need to let some things go. I think I might be some what of a workaholic. Not in the sense that I like to work all the time, but in the fact that I want to do everything. I've wanted to be a bartender since I was 16. And now that I'm nearing my birthday, that can actually become a reality. But this summer is beginning to look a little too crammed. I've accepted an internship with a non-profit graphic design firm and will be commuting from Oxford to Dayton a few times a month while I work at my current job. And on top of all that I've been offered this awesome freelance job for a design firm in Dayton as well. I really don't think I can do bartending as well and that is one dream I don't think I can give up.

Luckily, I won't be dealing with two of the jobs over the summer. I've told the bookstore that I have too much going on with internships, jobs, and a summer class to work for them as well. [yes, I'm also taking a sprint course over the summer. geesh] The photography gig is only during the school year so that won't be a problem either. But I'm realizing I have stretched myself too thin and I can't do everything as much as I'd like to. So it's time to sit down and make some decisions. Sigh.